CHERYL

01 January 2010 @ 12:00 am

For the Year 2009.

For the year 2009, I will...

1) Study kick ass hard for the Big O's.
2) Find less excuse to slack when studying.
3) Spend less money on nonsense.
4) Save as much money as possible, everyday.
5) Be of a better person, in every possible way.
6) Drink more water - at least meet the daily requirements.
7) Appreciate things and people around me more.
8) Love more, 'nuff said.

9) Remember friend's/close clique's birthdays and their presents!
10) Be less anti-social.

Love, Cheryl.

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24 November 2009 @ 01:00 am

What did you say about neglecting me, before?

After a huge paragraph that I've typed, I realised that the words doesn't go together like homogenised milk, and I got everything off, and started all over. It feels like I've been on this page, for hours. -.-"

I got rudely interupted by a thought as I was looking at the ceiling (I was being boliao lah). I realised that it's been quite some time since I last thought of my phailed relationships with friends and those I've lost along the way, to where I am, right now.

&yes, I was reminded of you, like for the gazillionth time, and simply because I really treasured the friendship we once had, and also because I dno what the real reason was, that drifted us apart.

Ohyes.
I have no idea about how people to react/feel about old friends coming back to you.

I'm fine with that at any time, but not this time round, because a pair of twins + another one came along and plump up the cushions and sat next to me.

Meet my friends;
Being-Lonely, Being-Alone, and Being-Neglected.

No prizes for guessing which and which are twins.

Ohwells.
Tillagain.

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18 November 2009 @ 09:56 pm

"Hello, WHERE ARE YOU?!! It starts at SIXXX!!!"

Gradnite 09' Table Decor.

Gradnite 09' last night was pretty much okay (to me at least). It's just that things are getting more and more boring as time passes by. Like how the lucky draw thing attracts everyone's attention when they push out the board that holds the prizes for the lucky people, but it gets horribly dry after the first 20 minutes of the game, or so. Everyone just turned back and continued to eat.
Like whatever, seriously.

I'm quite disappointed that Mr. and Ms. Temasek is actually a game of popularity. I always thought that it was a title for the best-dressed of that night, or someone whom everyone voted because of that person's personality or something like that.

But it turns out to be a game of popularity, also known as a title to those who have the most friends that are supportive.
-.-"

No doubts, the part where everyone starts moving around in between of the games that was on-going, just to take photos with friends and teachers are the best. Hands-down.

As usual, photos are on Facebook.

Things are getting more and more mundane for me as each day passes by. No job yet, no plans, no money, nothing.
Big plans are not confirmed with those involved, no one spoke of the details like when, where and how. Its like something hanging in the middle of nowhere and silence seems to echo everywhere whenever someone raise it up during dinner time. It just irks me so much that I won't be surprised that we will end up not going anywhere, or me, getting so frustrated about it and end up not joining them to anywhere.

And as for me, I just want to land myself a job and earn some money cus I'm waaay too broke that I don't even dare to think of how much I have left in my wallet. ):

Seems like I've gotten quite a bit out up there. &Here's to Eunice, my online dairy have something new! hahaha! (inside joke, sorry!)
Shall stop the typing before I get reminded of something stupid and bore everyone out with a hundred more paragraphs, and at the end of the day, y'all doesn't find it interesting the way I do, since I always feel that my thinking in warped and kinda.. morbid. Hope y'all have been reading with a shaker-full of salt. (Doubt a pinch will ever be enough..)

Right. Really.Should.Stop.NAO.
Tillagain.

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calm

Current Music: Blink 182 - I miss you.

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17 November 2009 @ 12:13 am

"She kept all the __!!!"

After hearing the things that I never knew from someone whom you're so close to, I can never bring myself to see you in the same light, ever again.

&Just now...

Me: Are you hiring.. (got interupted)
Guy at Sakae: Take-away? (with heaps of enthusiasm)

Shermaine and I burst out laughing. Omg.

Am tired, and turning cranky.
Tillagain.

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15 November 2009 @ 01:19 am

Got free masks, legs and back aches.

I never knew that having time on your hand is not exactly the greatest thing when you don't have much to do.

Ever since the O's over, I have been doing basically nothing, but just nua-ing around, going out and walk around (hoping that they would want to hire a part-timer, me) and proscratinating on the things that I've planned on doing during the period of the big O's to get me through and to chill a bit.

Oh right, and the clearing up of the books+papers.
I think my cupboard appreciates that clearing of books, papers and whatnots cus everything's used to be on top of it.

&everyone is like kinda fretting about Gradnite (?)
Yea, I've got my stuffs today with Hanlyn.
&To be honest, I did not spend much this time cus I was like having this mindset of not willing to spend so much for a Gradnite, in our school hall.

I mean, I would definitely up the effort to dress myself up, if only it was held somewhere else that's more.. Glam?!

I'm really sorry for telling people that I can't make it to go out with them because of the change of plans and everything else when they have got me inside their plans of going out and shop and all.
I know exactly how that feels, and I'm terribly sorry!! ):

Anyway, Tuesday's Gradnite, and I will be able to churn out some photos from it, since my life is so boring and well. Boring. Can't find a better word to describe it.

I still need a job. I'm broke. Like seriously broke.
I need a job. Please drop me a message if there's any job offers.

Okay, I shall stop going on how boring my life can be right now.
Tillagain.

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calm

Current Music: Breaking Benjamin - The Diary Of Jane.

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11 November 2009 @ 08:55 pm

Like Finally.

Freedom. Like Finally.

The 'O' levels is finally over. Finally, with a capital F. WOOHOO!!!~

&away with the non-existent Hiatus that I've placed on faithwingz@livejournal.
Ah yes. A new layout too!!

I'm terribly sorry to you, who have been taking all my nonsense because I felt that I wasn't prepared enough for the 'O's and everything else, which includes my panic-attacks, my complaints and whatnots.

I thank you and apologise to you, with all my heart, and I hope that you'll forgive me for disturbing you for this whole time.

Now that all the hoo-has' over, I need to seriously pack up the things in, around, and about my room.
The war is over, and there's the need to restore everything back to its original state.

&of course, it also time to sort out everything and restore everything that's all mess up and in wrecks, in my life.
It's about time to sort through the good and bad, and rebuild the bad up into a stable concrete happiness.

On that note, I'm horribly broke. I need a part-time job. Anyone? Any offers for this poor, broke soul?
Not to mention that I haven't got the slightest idea what to wear for Grad Nite.
Poor, poor me. ):

I think i should go and try to start on clearing the things that's scattered all around in my room.
&oh. Did I mentioned that I finally have the time and have books to read now?
I'm such a geek. But who cares?!! Hahaha! 8)

Ohright.
&manymanymany thanks to those who have wished me luck and well for the 'O's. Really appreciate them all! (:

Tillagain.

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Current Music: Def Tech - My Way.

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05 November 2009 @ 10:18 pm

How did Colorgenics know?!!

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

Everything seems to be going against you at this time. Try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. Nothing is going as you would plan. The situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. It would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

Colorgenics. is. always. so. true.
Can't find anything else to say right now. Till again.

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05 November 2009 @ 09:54 pm

'I don't get it. Both polishes are white, but of different prices!!'

The 'heavy' papers (think: Social Studies, Sciences, Language, and Mathematics) are finally over.
This week feels horribly slow and stagnant though.
Like how me and Eunice said (in unison) today: It's ONLY Thursday today.

One more week, two more papers to go.

I am mad tired already. ):

"It's going to be over, soon."

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02 November 2009 @ 09:32 pm

Babe, pick a night. Come out to play.

Walking away isn't the hardest. The most difficult thing to do, is telling yourself that you can't look back.
- runawaytrain.tumblr.com

-

With everything else aside, today is a happy-ippity day.
(:

Bai.
Hai to coasts, rivers, forests, jungles, oceans, fishes, shrimps, spits and tombolos, mangroves, DCs, LDCs, salinisation and waterlogging (since you two always come together in Pakistan as menaces), eutrophication (sounds cool onlyyy), green/blue/red/yellow(eww)/orange/purple/pink/black/teal/grey/brown revolutions, wave-cut platforms and cliffs, global warming, groynes, longshore drift, floodplains and levees, commercial logging, headlands and bays, river re-sectioning, oxbow-lake (you and your diagrams), Income per capita, hydroelectricity, intensity of food production, and everything else in the textbook (cus' i can't rmbr the entire syllables lah!!)

Okay. Bye.

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geeky

Current Music: Three- Britney Spears.

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31 October 2009 @ 02:24 pm

safeguarding the inerests of the minority groups through minority representations..

There's finally some peace and quiet around in my house.

There was this construction works on my block (that never seems to cease. Or should I say that the works' never done? Annoying.) and this morning, they woke me up, very rudely.

I literally jumped out of my bed because of the sudden drilling noise.
And that was like at 08:30AM!!!
Plus I couldn't get to sleep last night, and I haven't got the slightest idea why.

!@!@##$@#%^&&*(#!^!

I dno what's going on right now. But I'm so annoyed by those drilling noise and this trumpet player somewhere that seems to be playing this 5 notes (yes, I counted) over and over and over again.

D:<

Right. Back to more Social Studies. *fakes enthusiasm for it*

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30 October 2009 @ 06:08 pm

Colour. Harmony. Colour. Test.

In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt.

^ Snippets of the results of my Colorgenics test.
It's ever so true. (sigh)

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28 October 2009 @ 10:35 pm

Question.

Good Question.

I really dno. Maybe it's the stomach flu or something.
The walls that I had, seems to grow.
It seems to be taller each day.
):

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25 October 2009 @ 02:42 pm

stomach flu. flu. flu.

During this period of time, the last thing that you'ld ever want is a bad case of stomach flu.
Damnit.

10, ♥!

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20 October 2009 @ 01:35 am

I know it's impossible. But.

People always leave, but sometimes they come back.

- One Tree Hill.

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16 October 2009 @ 01:17 am

Oh no. No.

It's being ripped off.

I knew that all along.
But I never knew that it's never going to heal.

Damnit.

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pessimistic

Current Music: 久石讓 Joe hisaishi Live - 風のとおり道 (from Valley of the Wind)

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14 October 2009 @ 12:59 am

Day One of being 17!

Appreciation

A big Thank-you to all who have wished me (yesterday) and with all that blessings that I've recieved, may it be via texts, or on my wall on Facebook, phone call (YOU TWO MUST LASTS LONG LONG, AH!! hahaha! Something between me and the person who called me this morning!!) , and lastly, face-to-face.

I really appreciate that y'all actually remembered that it's my birthday, because honestly, I totally forgot about it until the texts came through, wishing me well on being 17th. I was like: IT'S THE 13TH ALREADY?!!
Hahaha, I'm such a loser. Can even forget about my own birthday. haha!

I don't have much wishes, but I really do hope that those few that I have and am currently holding on them, will come true and make me a happier girl on Earth.
& I know that I'm very very blessed and looked-after from above, because I already have a dream come true.

The purpose of this entry is to express my appreciation to those who have wished me, and wished me well.
Thank you all so so so much! *Sticks out arms and hugs y'all!*
I really appreciate them all, and if I missed out on replying you, I'm really sorry, and I really didn't mean to do that!

Thank you all, for making me really happy on my 17th birthday. (:

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12 October 2009 @ 01:58 am

Can't sleep. Can't sleep. Can't sleep!!!

I can't sleep.
And yes, it's kinda bothering me since I have to get to school later in the afternoon.

I was watching through some videos just now, in hope that I could get sleepy.

My hopes didn't come true. >:

As I was flipping the pages of the web, I was thinking through those stuffs that the optimistics spoke.
Suddenly, I wished that I could be that optimistic, too.
But somehow, I have the blood of a hardcore pessimist flowing in me. It really sucks, and there's nothing I can possibly do to change/help that.

Typing, pausing, backspacing, re-typing, backspacing, pausing, typing, and the cycle repeats.
I think I should just go and lie on my comfy bed and try to sleep.

Goodnight.

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04 October 2009 @ 11:26 pm

You'll be 80 this year, if you're still with us.

"It’s like your heart has been ripped out and stomped on. You can’t breathe, you don’t want to eat, you can’t function. It’s the most intense pain that you’ll ever feel, and there’s no way to relieve it. Its unyielding, merciless torture, and you know it’s yours for life."

- Dawson's Creek.

I miss you. ):

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23 September 2009 @ 11:16 pm

The thing about life.

One mark difference. One different class. One year's difference.

Yes, I'm talking about you.
And, no. I'm not mocking you here. Seriously.
I would still like to be your friend, fyi.

I know I'm on hiatus, but I just need to get this out.
Okay, thanks for reading.
Back to Hiatus.
Bai.

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13 September 2009 @ 09:33 pm

Did someone say.. Adventure?!!

HAHAHA!
A little something from runawaytrain.tumblr.

It's back to school tomo, and it'll be the checking of scripts tomo.
How nice.

I'm so not ready for school, for xcore studying and things along that line.
Like the way, i'm not used to seeing the nails on my left hand, being.. so naked.
):

It's back to the days of xcore studying, no fun, and lead a very uninteresting life.
Blended with more stress, anxiety and more shit.

Anyway, this post is to also tell (those who're still reading faithwingz@lj that is) that,
faithwingz@lj is going on a Hiatus.

A hiatus till the big O's is over.
Will post tiny snippets (I think), but never proper posts, so yeah.

Alright. Need to go and pack stuffs for tomo.
Tillagain.

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